What the fuck am I doing?

Hello folks its been a fucking long time since i have written my last blog so today i am here to write something.

what the fuck have i been doing? i have no fucking clue! hours and days are flying like anything. don't ask how productive and creative it has been. i am lost totally and totally.

i am neither happy nor sad, neither ambitious nor lazy, neither excited nor depressed, neither alive nor dead. i have been asking myself whats the fucking point of living like this? yeah! like always i found no answer.

but the matter of the fact is things are changing day by day (i know this bcoz i m loosing hair day by day! ofcourse not body hair)

i hav been planning, thinking, dreaming ever since i was kid. but till now i see no material realization of dreams. who said dream big? fuck them. i am fed up, i am going to give up.

when i sit back and think too many changes within me these days. like i hav lost interest in books, temples, gods, sports, tours, drinks and even girls. fuck me what a wreched condition?

no fucking philosophy book is going to answer my questions? no god is going to care for my headaches? no person is going to understand my moodswings? woww! this should be life in reality! i hav been living in fucking dreams!

good! now i know what to do! i know what am i going to do! good night boys i need some rest, i need to go to bed. i wil write another post once i know what am i after. good luck till then! (i m sure it wont be long)

P.S.: Don't fucking console me with your stupid comments, just read and fuck offf...